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The ends don't always justify the means,
but I know what it takes to get what I
need, I've got the cure when passive protest just won't do...just flick my
Bic as I hold it to the fuse.
Smash it up.
Break it down.
Bring it down, down to the ground.
Tear it up.
Burn it down.
Burn
it down, down to the ground.
How long have we waited for the day when they tighten their grips
and we slip away?
The sound of breaking glass drives me back up.
It makes me whole, when I've been down on my luck.
You keep on sayin' that you want to know me
but you never show me your true self.
How can you ever expect someone else to know you
when all you're going to do is just pretend
you're someone else?
You keep on sayin' that you want to show me that you're really different,
but you're just the same.
If you're really mindless, then there is no way that I can win, maybe
you're just one of them, or maybe it's just a game.
You lie to yourself and remain alone.
I'm not exactly sure of your motivation.
I'm not exactly sure what you're tryin' to do.
All I'm really sure is that you're not too impressive
and you're wearing a mask that I can't see through.
Maybe you're not looking for acceptance,
maybe you're striving for something more.
If it's status that you lust then why try to be one of us?
You're someone we'll never trust 'cause
we know the score.
Into the dark is where you're draggin me
and into your dark is where I never want to
be. I know I'm not alone and I really want to leave.
Into the dark is where you want to watch me bleed.
I'm feeling kinda trapped, I gotta go.
I'm feelin' kinda trapped don't you know. I'm feelin
kinda trapped I gotta go.
I gotta go.
I'm being dragged down, for how long, I don't know.
I'm being dragged down and I rise up way
too slow. I know I don't belong here and I think I ought to go.
I hope that I can leave here, leave here with my soul.
Too much to find, so much so little time.
So many images persist to shade my mind.
Will I ever come around or will I just hit the ground?
Will I still be standing when it all comes down?
Why can't I seem to sort it out?
Why am I always filled with doubt
So many people everywhere,
so self-absorbed without a care of their viral lves.
I'd like to bleed them all, when all is drained who shall hold?
When mindless bodies screw tortured souls,
will somebody be there to catch me when I fall?
Why can't I seem to sort it out.
Why am I always filled with doubt.
How could I always be so
blind? Why can't I figure it out?
I could always hope for change, could always hope to rearrange.
But why not just abandon hope
and tear it all apart, now?
I'm always around you to show you that I care, but I don't know what for.
It seems
to me that you couldn't care less so I'm not gonna do it anymore.
I see no reason why I've placed such a value on you,
but my thoughts have changed now,
I've opened my eyes and now I'm through.
Looking back at my short life, the few pleasures that I've found,
all your misconceptions pummel me to the ground.
Now, I look at your small life and it doesn't mean a bit. I pick myself
up off the ground 'cause I don't give a shit.
They say all good things come to an end, I wish this didn't apply.
You were once someone I called my friend but that's all changed now
and I don't know why.
Things are very different now.
You've got nothing to say.
It's sad when someone you know very well decides to fucking die and go away.
I sleep until there is no light.
I'm wide awake all through the night.
Dinner may suck but I'll take a bite, I do whatever I can.
My muscles stiffen through the day.
Discomfort never goes away.
Someone should throw me away. I feel like a garbage can.
Throw me away, I've got no use.
Throw me away, I'm nothing to lose.
Throw me away, I feel like shit.
I am useless. I know I know nothing at all.
I'd take a stand, but I know I'd fall.
I'd run head-down into a wall and watch my blood run faster.
Girls laugh and pass me on the street.
I spook out everyone I meet.
I've got pink toenails on my feet, I'm such a fucking master.
Throw me away, I've got no use.
Throw me away, I'm nothing to lose.
Throw me away, I feel like shit.
I am useless. I never seem to feel well.
I always seem to look like hell.
It seems like everyone can tell my mind is going numb.
My mom thinks I wear women's clothes.
I get dogged on at all the shows.
It seems that everybody knows I look like a fucking bum.
Throw me away, I've got no use.
Throw me away, I'm nothing to lose.
Throw me away, I feel like shit. I am useless.
Oh my God! My God this can't be happening!
God tell me, tell me this isn't real!
I can't believe all that I have
foreseen is finally happening.
I cannot for a single second stand the way I feel.
I always knew. I always saw it coming.
Enveloped now, encased by my worst fear.
I've never felt the nausea of longing to feel nothing,
I never wanted to cease to
exist, just disappear. Fear memories are all that lie ahead.
Never have I felt so lost. Memories dull my senses.
Fear tragedy is all that lies ahead.
Never have I felt so dead.
Once felt so warm, now I'm fucking freezing.
I am the once embraced abandoned one.
I raised my eyes up to the light in hopes of finding healing;
no relief was mine, I was burnt, by the sun.
I have slipped and I have fallen so far down I can't get out.
Overwhelmed by my doubt.
Things I said I'd never do I've done.
Those I said I'd never be I've become.
I have broken - I'm still breaking - cracked and wrecked, beyond repair.
I can see that no one cares. Forgotten.
Recalled. Smacks me in the face every time I fall.
I cannot disregard, with each new fall I hit twice as hard.
Would you be there for me? I would.
I would be there for you. I would.
Would you look up to see?
I would. falling forward and looking up.
It burns! It burns! It burns my eyes and throat, but I need no antidote.
Gnawing and tearing at my insides -
seething, keeping me alive - hatred poisons me through and through -
a sustenance - keeping me true. It's not too late.
It's never gonna be too late.
Embrace your hate. The pain! The pain!
The pain it crushes me. I gain animosity. Acid sweat and
bloody tears, through it all I preserve.
Some sedate through indifference but I withheld zero tolerance.
why am i this way?
tell me why?
why am i this way?
why?
open wounds in the palms of my hands,
festering through infections time.
I feel so faint as my life spills over you.
back step over glass as I repent.
I fear I cannot prevent myself
from spilling your life all over me.
go! I'm so sick, so sick of myself.
Mother, say you'll pray for me.
I'm so sick, so sick of myself.
I'm premature in my decay.
I'm so sick, so sick of myself.
Mother, say you'll pray for me.
I'm so sick, so sick of myself.
Shards of glass swimming in my eyes.
A small voice in the back of my mind
that's whispering words I never want to hear.
I pray that you won't hesitate,
as you watch me degenerate, to reach
in my wounds and extract all of my fear.
yeah! I'm so sick, so sick of myself.
Mother, say you'll pray for me.
I'm so sick, so sick of myself.
I'm premature in my decay.
I'm so sick, so sick of myself.
Mother, say you'll pray for me.
I'm so sick, so sick of myself.
My suffocation, asphyxiation.
I've been choking on my own blood.
My suffocation, asphyxiation.
I've been choking on my own blood.
I'm so sick, so sick of myself.
Mother, say you'll pray for me.
Once there was boy who had vibrant glow, but as it goes, someone took it from him.
One day through the rain I heard him meekly moan, he said
"Will you wrap your arms around me as I'm falling?"
Remember when Remember when Remember when we were all so beautiful? Never
Again Never Again But since then we've lost our glow.
They said it hurt their eyes but he would never know that they were filled with
regret as their own dissipated.
He said, "I now feel more desperately alone, even though they wrapped their
arms around me as I'd fallen."
Remember when Remember when Remember when we were all so beautiful? Never
Again Never Again But since then we've lost our glow.
Remember when Remember when Remember when we were all so beautiful? Never
Again Never Again But since then we've lost our glow.
They said it hurt their eyes, but he would never know that they were claiming
regret as their own...
their own dissipated.
Open my eyes as I submerge and I won't deny what I've been since birth.
I'll die drowned by your standards.
Breathe in the life of the summmer's death as the orange and red breathe their first breath,
so welcome as they're burning through. We all begin to burn.
Autumn's flame dance's in my eyes Set alight for all we've learned.
My ashes falling. My skin is singed but it heals my heart and with glowing pride I'll wear my scars.
I'm honored by your hatred. Leaves fall we arise again, and the end impending, it will begin.
So welcome as it's burning through. Ashes fall and I'm rising up again.
Ashes fall. Ashes fall. Ashes fall as we all arise.
Lean against the night and laugh as I try to scale the walls.
Ingnored futility fills the air. You're only there to watch me fall...
If only pure sweetness was offered, why's this bitter taste left in my mouth?
If I could catch my breath just to exhale, I'd know that I held it in to long...
From above comes a faint smile, a new vantage such a view. Familiarity know disowned.
Just sit and stare as I walk away.
Hung in your room, swaying, hoping only that you'll see.
All by myself, I'm alone in such poor company.
The deeper I think, the deeper I seem to sink, I can't stop the insects that are feeding,
pull the needles from beneath my skin. I broke myself, shattered, tied a bow around every piece.
You'll love the eyes. Have they always shown so vacantly? The more I show the less you'll want to know.
I can't stop the insects that are feeding, pull the needles from beneath my skin.
Now I'm on display. I am becoming. Hurt myself today. It's all for you.
Do you like what I'm becoming? Cut myself today. It's all for you.
I part the night, flashing, approaching as I watch you flee.
Pushed through your panes. Seems I've landed quite uncomfortably.
But as I pass through souls of broken glass I can't stop the insects that are feeding.
Pull the needles from beneath my skin.
Let's admire the pattern forming. Murderous filigree.
I'm caught in the twisting of the vine. Go ascend with ivy, climbing.
Ignore and leave for me the headstone crumbling behind. I can't help my laughter as she cries.
My soul brings tears to angelic eyes.
Let's amend the classic story, close it so beautifully, I'll let animosity unwind.
Steal away the darkened pages, hidden so shamefully. I'll still feel the violence of the lines.
I can't stand my laughter as they cry. My soul brings tears to angelic eyes.
And miles away my mother cries. Omnipotence, nurturing malevolence.
Now ending discreetly, just like a hidden sin,
as I go under please tuck me in.
Make me invisible.
This hidden explosion calls for a wandering cast with no direction.
Enter all monsters let us twist another fairy tale.
Go kill the lights, we'll glow till morning comes.
I'll say goodnight and bow to everyone.
Then we go under.
The beauties are sleeping as fruit just rots away.
Today go hungry.
Let it begin.
Make me invincible.
There was a weeping I carried down today, a sigh worth keeping.
Deep within divinity let's star another secret show.
No need to worry it is just another monster.
No need to fear here in the secret show.
No need to worry I am just another monster.
In you, I'll see me, in the secret show.
I feel it washing, over me,
slow poisonous tide.
Pins and needles, dance on me
sickness undefined.
Now I'm afraid, to face the sky,
please someone hear my haunting cry.
Please let them waken me, please let them waken me,
please let them waken me, please let them waken me.
Go!
With eyes sewn shut I still can see, I end up somewhere,
all that is surrounding me, somewhere in between,
Between a dream, I end up somewhere,
and motionless reality, will I forever lie?
I feel it binding, so smoothly,
I see myself below,
I feel it gnawing, eating me,
poisonous and slow.
My mind it speeds, my voice has died,
God let me make the faintest cry.
Please let them waken me, please let them waken me,
please let them waken me, please let them waken me.
Go!
With eyes sewn shut I still can see, I end up somewhere,
all that is surrounding me, somewhere between,
Between a dream, I end up somewhere,
and motionless reality, will I forever lie?
Binded by my hands, bind my legs, bind my eyes,
bind my mouth, bind everything.
Opened up, and for the taking,
just one touch and I'll be yours.
Open up, wide for the breaking
just one touch and I'll be yours.
What's on the other side, behind the mirror?
To try, I cry, to break, the static keeping me here in between,
What's on the other, side of the mirror?
To try, I cry, to break, the static keeping me here in between,
the static keeping me here in between.
I remember when I was told of story of crushed velvet,
candle wax, and dried up flowers
The figure on the bed all dressed up in roses, calling
Beckoning to sleep,
Offering a dream
words were as mystical as purring animals
The circle of rage
The ghosts on the stage appeared
The time was so tangible, I'll never let it go
Ghost stories handed down, reached secret tunnels below
No one could see me
I fell into yesterday
Our dreams seemed not far away
I want to, I want to, I want to stay
I fell into fantasy
The words were as mystical as purring animals
The circle of rage
The ghosts on the stage appeared
The time was so tangible, I'll never let it go
Ghost stories handed down, reached secret tunnels below
No one could see me
I fell into yesterday.
Our dreams seemed not far away
I want to, I want to, I want to stay.
I fell into fantasy
The girl on the wall always waited for me,
And she was always smiling
The teenage death boys
The teenage death girls
And everyone was dancing
Nothing could touch us then
No one could change us then
Everyone was dancing
Nothing could hurt us then
No one could see us then
Everyone was dancing
Everyone was dancing
No one could see me
I fell into yesterday
Our dreams seemed not far away
I want to, I want to, I want to stay
I fell into fantasy
Our dreams seemed not far away
Our dreams seemed not far away
Our dreams seemed not far away
I fell into fantasy
Along the path where the stream is talking,
I breathe the mist and continue walking.
The wood it whispers in a language of it's own.
As a sigh escaped my lips,
I feel the light caress of fingertips that,
steal away the breath and leave me on my own.
Waiting by the stairs. (Waiting, I despair)
Waiting, I despair. (Waiting by the stairs)
My whole life is a dark room.
One, big, dark room.
Do I hear the hollow sound,
Footsteps resounding on this frozen ground,
Or the familiar disappointment of the echoes of my own?
Waiting by the stairs. (Waiting i despair)
Waiting, I despair. (Waiting by the stairs)
Somehow I ended up here in between,
Where there is always the comfort,
Of knowing I'll never be seen.
When I fall
When I fall
I wait for just one touch,
And I fall
Weightless,
Endless,
Faithless, I'll adore you.
A single touch, before I fade. Painless let me pass through.
Weightless,
Endless,
Faithless, I'll adore you.
A single touch, before I fade. Painless let me pass through.
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